I hate how much I love you…

Why everything that’s supposed to be bad make me feel so good?
Everything they told me not to is exactly what I would
Man I tried to stop man I tried the best I could
But (You make me smile)
“Addiction”- Kanye West

This is my idea of a crackhouse

I must admit, just thinking of sugar makes me smile. Cake is my ultimate frenemy. We have an intensely complicated relationship, and just when I believe I’m ready to let go, the memories of our good times together flood my brain. Remember that time back in ’88 Shells, when you had a rough day at school, but you came home, and I was waiting for you with open arms in the form of an Oatmeal Crème pie? Yes, Little Debbie, I recall. I blame it on my upbringing. Every important event, accomplishment, celebration, and even sad moments like funerals, sugar was always there, silently waiting in the wings to comfort me and make me feel happy again. Whether it was my Aunt Anne’s homemade Lemon Cake (which she still has not shared the secret recipe), or the chocolate ho-ho sitting at the bottom of my lunchbox, sweets treats have been there every step of the way.

Now why would they create a DOUBLE DECKER!!??! SMH

You may be asking yourself why I am even discussing my struggles with sugar on my blog about cancer. But touché my friends, the phrase “You are what you eat” have never become clearer to me until after diagnosis. I’m an avid reader, so immediately upon being diagnosed with cancer, I was adamant about educating myself on the disease as well as prevention. As I dove headfirst into all of the material, one ideology was ever-present: Sugar is the DEVIL. Being the sugar addict that I am, I took this very personal. In my mind, I began to defend sugar like any BFF would do. But after each book I read, I came to the harsh realization that I have been sleeping with the enemy for 28 years.  When I got to page 67 in the book “Anti-Cancer: A New Way of Life” by David Servan-Schreiber (2 time brain cancer survivor), the first words on the page said “Cancer feeds on Sugar”. I had to let that marinate for a second. Did you know that the PET scan machine, used to detect cancer, simply measures the areas in the body that consume the most glucose? Yeh, I didn’t either. Cancer LOVES glucose, and the more glucose in your system, the more you are feeding the cancer, and assisting it in its growth. Scary thought huh? Yes, imagine how I felt. I could not help but wonder if all those gummy bears and cupcakes I ate assisted the tumors in my breasts to grow.  It also reads “They promote the factors of inflammation, which, as we saw in chapter 4, also stimulate cell growth and act, in turn, as fertilizer for tumors”. Inflammation is one of the causing factors to all disease in the body, so if you are eating foods that promote inflammation, you are preparing your body to become sick. It’s as simple as that.

The American Institute for Cancer Research estimates that 40% of breast cancers are preventable through diet and lifestyle measures. October is National Breast Cancer Awareness month, and I want to raise awareness that diets are a major cause of adult cancers, including breast cancer.  I also want to raise awareness that women are not powerless against breast cancer or any type of disease for that matter – mammograms for ‘early detection’ are not the only defense. You have the power, and the power is in what you EAT!  It is possible to take responsibility over your health so you never have to walk down the road I did.

In Proverbs, the Bible says we live and die by the choices we make, and to choose life. But I realized that people don’t have this mentality when it comes to food. You look both ways before crossing the street to prevent getting hit by a car, but then you eat fried and high fat food  every day, and never think of preventing diabetes or heart disease. Last week I watched a documentary called “Fat, Sick & Nearly Dead”. During the course of his travels across America while on a 60 day juice fast, Joe interviewed many people about food and their ideas on fasting. Most of them thought he was absolutely insane, while others felt like food is just food, and I’m going to die anyways, it might as well be at the hands of a pork chop. SMH. One brotha even proclaimed, “Well when I die, I sure hope God has ribs in Heaven”. Le sigh. Having a disease twice made me think twice about what I eat, but I know this is not the case for many people. I’m willing to go to extremes to stay healthy and live as long as I can.

Kris & My Boo Dr. Oz

In one of my favorite books Crazy Sexy Cancer, Kris Carr tells her story of being diagnosed with an incurable, inoperable and medically untreatable liver cancer. She was diagnosed at stage IV, and the doctors told her to just “watch and wait”. *insert straight befuddled face* Kris took matters into her own hands and adopted a diet and lifestyle that promoted health and wholeness, transforming herself into a Wellness Warrior. 11 years later, though she still has cancer (which is now stagnant), she’s thriving and living a healthy lifestyle, and spreading the message far and wide.  Your body was designed to fight off any disease, but many of our immune systems lay dormant and defenseless because they aren’t being properly charged up.

In an effort to step outside of my comfort zone, and challenge myself, I have decided to embark on a 10 day juice fast, inspired by the documentary “Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead”. I’ve done many fasts before, but never one with just fresh juice. I’m especially interested in starting the fall season out with this juice fast because traditionally, this is the season that I gained at LEAST 7-8 pounds. This is normally the time of year when I let my sweet tooth make all the decisions for me, and as a result end up gaining weight that I usually regret by Dec 31st. This year will be different. I am putting my health first now, and not waiting for the New Year to make drastic changes. CanSer (as Kris refers to it) partially forced me into a healthier lifestyle, and I definitely look at as an upgrade. Kris says “My wake-up call encouraged me to make a total lifestyle upgrade inside and out..I learned that a nutrient dense, plant-based diet rules, the Standard American Diet kills, stress sucks (all life-force), exercise is non-negotiable, joy is utterly contagious, and having fun must be taken seriously.” I couldn’t agree more!!

So who wants to take your health life by the horns and join me on the juice fast?? 🙂 Cheers to the good life! I’ll drink some Mean Green Juice to THAT!

My 27th bday..toasting it up with Cupcakes SMH


10 thoughts on “I hate how much I love you…

  1. Excellent post my friend! Very, very timely. People don’t realize that the old adage “you are what you eat” holds much truth. Kudos to you for bringing awareness to the people and for reminding me to “eat to live”.

  2. I love this!! im so happy! this is soo the truth…okay im in tears…man why can’t i do a backwards flip!! imma learn i need to for such a time as this…this was so informative and heart felt…mixed with a hint of coolness and a dash or relatability (i made that word up lol) something everyone can relate to!! Keep sharing with the nations SHellista this is just the beginning and im behind you 200+ percent!!

  3. Wow! Your story and motivation is inspirational. I stumbled upon you on the naturally curly website and have found myself perusing the informative and uplifting posts on your site for the past half hour! …As a blogger myself I just love finding good, blog -worthy reads! =) I am wishing you the best of luck and praying for you in your juice-fasting journey because boy do I know how hard it is. Fasting is something I’ve been desperately wanting to do for the past few months but with an intense desire in the past few weeks. My spirit is so willing, but sometimes… ughhhh, most times my flesh is just so weak =( I am actually just beginning another fast now so I felt that it was so funny that I stumbled upon this post… good luck! =)

    • Thanks for stopping thru and taking a read!! I really appreciate it! And I will check you out as well. I totlaly understand…fasting is serious business, and I’m a little worried about not eating solid food for over a week. I think i’m going to miss chewing! LOL. But I’m in it to win so we shall see!!!

  4. SUNFLOWER!!!!!!! Wonderful Post!! 5 stars once again. You put everything into perspective & I love how you made this so personal and informative all at that same time. It seems like only yesterday when I would be snacking on Kit Kats and cupcakes at my desk and you would have a FIT!! LITERALLY!! HUGS!! Shelley B the Nurtitionist has a great ring to it.
    I’m down for the 10 day juice fast.

  5. “In Proverbs, the Bible says we live and die by the choices we make, and to choose life.”
    i have been struggling over the past few months to make the lifestyle changes that I know in my heart I need to make. Reading that just made things crystal clear again. thank you for this.

  6. Just found your blog – so refreshing! Hope you had a good birthday. I agree on sugar, and as I have just started to read here I wondered about your views on chemicals and specifically medicines like the pill and plan b which pump women full of estrogen. And then we get 70+% estrogen feeding cancers… Did you blog about that already?
    Wishing us both continued recovery! X

  7. Ps I make spinach mint and pineapple smoothies that you may enjoy! Also smoothies with frozen fruits are hard to beat. Smoothies include all the fibre which is supposed to help clear toxins out better than just juice.
    Have a fab day x

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